When Faith is Your Only Option
Sometimes, things happen in life and you never understand why. Your mother loses the only jobs shes known for the last 25 years. You find out your boyfriend cheated on you the day before he came to visit. Your car gets broken into. Your baby cousin gets locked up the year he's supposed to graduate high school. I mean, the list of woes never cease to end because I mean, it's life. Never, in a million years, would I wish bad to happen to my worst enemy. Yet, some how they've manged to creep up into my life and become my reality at some point in time.
Over the years, so many different things have transpired in my life, some things worst than others, and I've found myself always asking, the question "why me?" I mean, I'm no longer the mean, rude girl that I once was as a kid and I try to give back when I can. So, why me? In reality, yes, things could be worse for sure. I mean there are people dealing with things that I couldn't even imagine. But, sometimes I wish I could live happily ever after like the Disney movies.
But God is showing me that he has something different planned. I will say that despite my situations, I've always managed to make it through. So, I don't have any doubt that this too shall pass. And as the saying goes, he won't put more on you than you can bare, right?
Well recently, I found out that my Dad has all these complications going on with his body. I didn't know half of these issues existed because we don't really have the normal father/daughter relationship. To keep a long story short, I didn't learn who my dad was till I was 12 years old. Fast forward 14 years later, and our relationship is somewhat still the same, non existent. Yet, deep down, I'm all about giving people chances, especially when I genuinely want things to work. So despite his lack of effort, I'm always willing to make time because in reality all I ever wanted to be was a "daddy's girl".
So when I found out about these complications from my brother, I was a bit taken aback. I'm 600 miles away. I can't just get in the car and drive to his house and he doesn't answer my calls, so I feel helpless. And it hurts. I've cried. I've prayed. I've cried and prayed. My mind has wondered in so many directions and created so many scenarios that it's not even funny. I haven't been able to tell him how awesome New York has been for me. I haven't been able to talk to him about men and dating or ask him what his opinion is on Trump and the world today. And now the thought of never getting the chance to have those conversations has entered into my mind. I know that God allows things to happen in life for a reason. But I haven't quite figured out the reason for all of this. All I can do now is continue to pray, wait and trust God to pull him through.
I decided to share this glimpse of my life for multiple reasons. First, because I want you to see that everyone goes through things. No matter how popping someone's life may seem, we're all still human and life happens real fast for us all. So never judge a person and expect that everything is perfect for them. Second, because I want you to reflect on the current relationship you have with your parents. If they're still healthy and alive, be sure to tell them you love them. Of course, like every parental figure, they can be overbearing at times. But trust me I'd take overbearing any day, because that's better than not having a parent at all. And Lastly, I shared this with you because I want all the prayers I can get. I'm a firm believer in prayer. I know mountains can be moved and I'm trusting God for that today.
If you're going through anything today, no matter how big or small, and your faith is being tested, recite these bible verses below. Stay positive and now that this too shall pass!
Till next time loves.
1. Isaiah 43:2
"When you go through deep waters, I will be with you."
2. Psalm 37:5
"Commit your way to the Lord. Trust in Him, and He will act."
3. Romans 8:18
"The pain that you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming."
4. Proverbs 31:25
"She is clothed in strength, and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future."
5. Joshua 1:9
"Be bold. Be brave. Be courageous."
6. Ecclesiastes 3:1
"There is a time for everything and a reason for every activity under the heavens."
7. Isaiah 41:10
"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."
8. Isaiah 66:9
"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born, says the Lord."
9. Psalm 91:4
"He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings, you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."
10. Psalm 62:1-2
"My soul finds rest in God alone, my salvation comes from Him, He alone is my rock and my salvation."
11. Philippians 4:13
"I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength."
12. Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."